Posts tagged: confession

Abba

By Serenity Everton, August 1, 2010 1:35 am

I want to be, to do all at once.

To read, to sit in the quiet and empty my mind of all I’ve read.
To have read, to know, and to have infinite understanding,
To know right from wrong, when there is right from wrong,
To know right from wrong, even if Abba could care less,
To have not only unshakable faith, but unshakable courage,
To do battle with a golden sword on behalf of Our Lord,
To defend Him to the death, even if that’s not what He wants me to do,
To proclaim His gospel with passion and without fear,
To actually have people listen to me and
To say something that makes a difference to them,
To listen to the woes of the world without judging and
To listen to the woes of the world but make a difference.

To study, worship, meditate, write, speak, evangelize, lead, follow
To fellowship, feel, preach, learn, pray, read, and eat from His table.
To feed, to house, to gather, to lift up those among us who
Hunger for food, for shelter, for spiritual sustenance, for understanding
For compassion and for You and the Holy Spirit.

What have you called me to do, Abba?
And will I have the courage to listen, to hear, and to obey?
And if I do not, will you forgive the sins of your drifting disciple?
The child who wants everything but gives nothing.

Confessions

By Serenity Everton, July 31, 2010 1:35 am

Abba,

You know what I confess before it falls from my lips.
You know I fight pride, envy, the temptation of laziness.
You know all I am and all I have not done for You.
You know I struggle not to depend on My Lord’s sacrifice
But to serve You with all that I am and all that I are.

You know what I wish with heart & hands before I speak.
You have heard my cries in the wilderness,
You have listened to me question why and why not,
You have peered into my soul and know all that I crave
But if You have called me to some great task I have not listened.

We say that making disciples will transform the world.
We say and sing and preach that we should live to lift up others.
We say that the Kingdom of God can be experienced here and now.
We say raptured joy with loved ones is the image of Rapture with You
But if we are imperfect images of You, and You made us,
Are you imperfect?

I have not listened, Abba, to You. I know I must. But I have not.
And that is my confession, Father, for You are here and now
And to hear You I have to listen.

But I have not listened, Abba.

Panorama Theme by Themocracy